My biggest risk, up to this point, would be in 2008 when I was 16. I was a few short weeks from finishing school and I was pretty much dead set on continuing education and going onto study music at A-Level. I”d been playing music for years as part off the school orchestra (I was first violin) and I enjoyed it tremendously.
However, throughout 2008 especially, my aspirations changed. I realised that I didn’t want to pursue music at the school I was at because I felt the system was very elitist. It seemed to me that the only real way you could have your say was if your parents where part of the PTA, a school governor, or they had influential connections. I’d like to be wrong about this but I still think that was the case.
One very hot morning, I had recorded several takes of a grade 6 violin piece for my coursework. It was a solo piece and I was playing at a level that I’d never really hit before. I really cannot remember the piece but I do remember it was extremely fast and very complicated to play. Doubled with the fact that it was being assessed so I had to hit every intonation, be technically great and then think about the performance of it.
Later that week, I was called to the music teacher’s office ands I was met with a barrage of shouting because apparently, I had swore on the finaled take after I had finished it. Now, I still deny this because I don’t remember doing so but the music teacher was adamant that I had. After a good 10 minutes of him being all up in my grill so to speak and his face pressed right up against mine, he pushed me hard into the wall of his office. And something snapped. The realisation that I was right about not continuing with music at that school and having that particular teacher was all ringing true. I left, and never , ever returned.
So I guess my biggest risk was what I did next. I went to my next lesson and a classmate had a prospectus for another college and , obviously still raw about what had happened moments ago, I borrowed it and had a look. The course I chose was very far away from music as it was doing Media and Computer Games. This was a curveball that I had never seen myself doing. But I stole the prospectus and applied there and then. I wasn’t listening to whatever my Spanish-English teacher was saying (probably something about Macbeth) and I sent my application off that day. As time passed, I had finished my exams, had my college interview and was accepted and was due to start the course the following September.
It was a massive risk for me to change, what I had thought would someday be my career , for something almost completely different. Did it pay off though? Not really. As the years went passed I started to really miss music , performing music and being part of a group. I still do quite frankly. My current career goals as a motion graphics artist is something that I maybe still have been going about because I don’t want to return to being a musician. But in the same vein, everything I do is influenced by music. Every video I make I write and perform the music. Its just a part of who I am and my creative identity.
I hope to one day combine my love of music with love of filmmaking.
WordPress Daily Post: 18/4/2014